1 door closes… how many others should I leave open?

After some soul searching following last week’s bad news I’ve decided I’m not going to try to get pregnant. It’s with a heavy heart that I have taken the decision that I don’t think I can put myself into the position where I could knowingly face the disappointment of constant failures of IUI cycles, the anxiety of a very high risk pregnancy, or the trauma of losses  (esp if these were “late”).

These things could happen to anyone (and I know they have happened for many of you in this group), but I feel like it’s one thing having to cope with an unexpected tragedy and another to deliberately put yourself into that situation. Psychologically I don’t think I’d cope well.
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2 days, 2 clinic visits

At the end of last week I had not one but two fertility clinic visits, at two different clinics. On the one hand things went “well” – I was happy with the doctors I saw and their explanations of their findings – but on the other hand the outcome of the visits put my plans not on pause, but in slow mo’. Continue reading

Possibly changing clinic

I really like the atmosphere at the private Harley Street clinic (a.k.a “The Baby Making Place” or TBMP) I’ve been to so far however, it’s pricey and it’s not really conveniently located from my office. Since I’m going for stimulated cycles I’m going to need monitoring via ultrasound scans and inevitably some of these will fall on work days. Because of this I think it is more practical to chose a clinic that’s nearer to work.

There’s a big NHS hospital very close to my office (which also happens to be the hospital where I was born!!) and they have an Assisted Conception Unit (ACU). Their prices are lower than TBMP – on the procedural side it’s not a massive difference per treatment, but after a few cycles the significance of that “small” amount increases dramatically.
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I’m back! (Happy New Year) and choosing a donor part 1

First of all let me wish all my readers a happy. healthy, and prosperous 2016! This is going to be a big year for me and I’m so excited (and a little bit scared!)

Anyhoo – I’ve taken quite a long break from the blog over the pre-Christmas, Christmas and New Year period. I went on my much anticipated trip to México and Florida and it was AWESOME 🙂 This was (hopefully) my “last hurrah” as a childless person so I made the most of the sun, clubs and tequila in Playa del Carmen and Canún. wp-1452244501027.jpg
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Smiley face!!

So for the last 3 days my morning routine has been to wake up and POAS (fertility forum speak for pee on a stick). Following my “breakthrough” last weekend I’ve been impatient to know what’s been going on inside my body. I called Dr A last Monday to see if we were going to try and monitor my hormones and see if looked like I was going to ovulate and have a “normal” cycle, but her response was to wait and see.

WAIT AND SEE?!?!?!

That’s all I’ve been doing for the past couple of months, and there will be plenty more of that to come once I start TTC in earnest! As you have probably guessed by now I’m no good at waitingContinue reading