So…. after having disappeared from my blog for a few months, I actually have something to write about! It looks like my emotional rollercoaster wasn’t ready to come to a halt.
After being plagued by such a thin, unresponsive endometrium that the doctor even advised against spending the money to TTC and warned against a very high risk pregnancy… miraculously my periods appear to have “come back” in August and September.
After some soul searching following last week’s bad news I’ve decided I’m not going to try to get pregnant. It’s with a heavy heart that I have taken the decision that I don’t think I can put myself into the position where I could knowingly face the disappointment of constant failures of IUI cycles, the anxiety of a very high risk pregnancy, or the trauma of losses (esp if these were “late”).
These things could happen to anyone (and I know they have happened for many of you in this group), but I feel like it’s one thing having to cope with an unexpected tragedy and another to deliberately put yourself into that situation. Psychologically I don’t think I’d cope well.
Don’t know what to do.
I spoke to the doctor and while he hasn’t said not to try to conceive; he has said that with my unresponsive uterine lining the chances of conception (implantation) are very low AND on top of that the risks of miscarriage/preterm delivery/Intrauterine Growth Restriction are high. I’m not worried about chances of conception being low; I’m concerned about the risks to the pregnancy and the child, and whether I can knowingly put myself into that condition and cope with the associated stress/emotional consequences.
What a difference 13 days can make… or not.
In the last 2 weeks the lining of my uterus has grown by measly 0.6mm.
So, I’ve been on a cocktail of estrogen and aspirin for 2 weeks now, and been to ACU for 2 scans.
Mr E (my consultant) is happy with progress so far… Continue reading
Cycle day 1 has arrived so my monitored cycle starts now.
I spoke to Dr E and from tomorrow I start taking Climaval 2mg (estrogen), 2 in the morning and 2 in the evening, as well as 1 “baby” asprin per day. Then I have to go for a scan on Monday to see whether my stubborn lining decides to respond and grow.